I just gotta keep going...

Yesterday I went to DHQ for another candidates interview, with Captain Ian. I wasn't as nervous as I was for the one I had in February, but I still was worried about it all. I was worried that I may have done enough in between the two interviews. A lot of stuff has happened but I couldn't remember it all.

I have always found the questions they ask are questions that I need to think about and as I think about it I find myself concentrating on what I feel is an awkward silence and panic. However God places things into my mind to say that almost answer the questions.

I actually found that this time it was a very good interview. I felt comfortable, honest and encouraged.

What people see in me is amazing. They see things that I cannot see and find very hard to accept, but God keeps leading me through it and helps me accept the things that others see and I do not.

I was so encouraged by it all. It has reminded me that I'm on the right path and now I have to stay focused and not be sidetracked or lose my way or even walk away when it becomes hard. I pray that God keeps me steady and guides me along the right roads. I pray for wisdom in many decisions I will have to take throughout this next six months. And I thank God for leading me this far and for giving me great examples to follow. Thanks Ian, Sue, Carl, Val, Mum, Dad, all you youths and everybody in the corps. Thank you for all you do to guild me and help me. Love you x

On a Starry Night...

Last Friday I took my brother and my friend to AWE, which is Ashford Worship Experience. It wasn't as great as it could of been. There is a lot of potential there, it just didn't seem to have been tapped into in the best way possible way. So I went and I worshipped and I had a good time singing and I did meet with God, it was just cut short, by the worship group saying, "That's it folks!"

How many times do we do that to God? He comes to us because we ask to be in His presence and we want Him to work in us. Yet as soon as He only just beginning to work within us and we go "That's it folks!" and we cut God short.

However the three of us decided that we would go to the beach, because it was a warm evening and now we didn't really have anything to do. So I drove down to Little Stone, where we went for a walk on the beach.

As soon as our feet touched the soft, cool sand we all knew that this would be a night that we would never be able to forget.

The sound of the sea, the light from the stars, we could see France and we were all overwhelmed by God's creation.

We layed on the sand and watched the stars, and as I was laying there I was reminded that God has placed every single star in place. I was in awe of how much God knows us, how he even knows how many hairs on our head. Its amazing!

God moved with us, even though people had told us that there was nothing else, God showed us that actually there was a lot more than what meets the eye. Someone had decided to cut God short, but God still had work to do and we were still open to Him and therefore God moved within us and around us and showed us something so awesome that it is hard to describe in words. It was not just the sight, but it was the touch, the sound, the smell and I won't forget that night and what God has taught me through it.